this is not a poem....just need to vent for a bit... you can read if you life

i dont know where to start, its just lately i feel unwanted. my cousin came down to visit my niece and now it seems like the entire world revolves around her. my own mother said "she loves me more then you do" now how the hell do you say that to your own daughter. so i simply replied "should've adopted her and let me go"
hmm funny huh?
now i dont know how to drive, but i am willing to learn. i mean i am 19 and should get my license. well my cousin has hers and my brother is treating her like she is a goddess. she is more affectionate to her then he is with me...like thats his sister and i'm not

am i feeling envious?? this is not me at all. i mean i look in green, but this is something i am not used to. i'm not jealous of my cousin, no need to be, we are all good at our own things. but its like once she came, i'm pushed to the side and no longer in need of service...

it hurts to know how easily i can be replaced...sigh